Am i still waiting?

I thought we are done. I thought you have leave me,when you asked me to let you go. Now you came back? You said you love me, and wanted me to be your girlfriend again. "If i turn on the light just once, will you make things brighter for me?". That's all i can ask from you, a very simple task. Will you please love me only,just me? Will you care for me? Will you become better? Will you trust me? Will you please have faith in our relationship? Will you put me as your priority? Will you? . I have too many questions to ask you. However,when i met you,i become speechless. It's not about him or her. This is about us. I got confused. You came back again,after i decided to forgot you and erase everything. You know,you got special place in my heart. You'll be there,deep down. My sweetest and bitter memory. Although you said,you felt as sad as i am before, but still i don't think that way. I'm sorry but i was more sad than you. I'm suffered more than you. I cried during the most random time. I make things become silly and world are spinning and upside down. Things look so worst and i can't watching loves. It's hurt pretty much and damn pain across my heart. Still,this words can't express how i felt that time. It's more than a year. I kept thinking about you and our memory stuck in my head. Today, i don't feel good. As if i was the mean person now. Now that you begging to come back,what should i do? I miss you,i miss you endlessly. You never know,how much i miss you. But miss wasn't a guarantee. Words and promises not a guarantee anymore. I used to listen to your words believe in your promise, but what have you done? You broke them all. Leaving me with regrets,biggest regret,that i can't turn back anymore. How do you assure me? Did you know, after we broke up, i have lost my trust in love. Perhaps,i no longer believe. It's too hard for me. I've been waiting for you so long to come and find me back again.

The End Of You And Me

After a long time, i finally let you go. Perhaps, that's what you've been waiting for so long. I sorry for those time i still hold you. Now that i have let you go, lets start a new life and be happy. Never forget me, you must remember how much i love you till this moment i let you go, my love not fade yet, perhaps it will stay there forever. You will be the memory of mine, i'll keep you in my heart till it slowly goes deep down, that i'll recall you again someday. I'm going to miss you. Good bye.

The love story of you and me had stopped today.

It's finally comes to an end. Finally.

August 11 2011.

With this, i want to stop the calculating here..the gadget might continue calculate but i want to remember these days..

If we're still together since the first..

We've been together intimately for 1year 4months 3weeks and 5days

But

After all the heart breaking story,and we still together as close as it could be..

We've been walked away intimately for 1year and 2days..

I felt that i've been left at the same time.

Last year we broke up on August 10 and Now we decided to let go each other on Aug 11

Coincidence? Or did you plan it?

Because last year, you broke up with me and again, Now you ask me to let 'us' go.

It's always you.

It's time now,right?

I'm going to miss you so much. Although it has been some time now.

Good bye my love..

heart damage

It's a cold night and i'm hungry. I wonder where were you. You've lost for three days, now. You not really lost, i can feel you there. Somehow, you disappear, you went away from me. I don't know what have i done wrong until you need to run away. I must admit that i'm actually sad. I'm disappointed and felt pathetic. I'm thinking to give you a text message but thinking of the same excuses each time, i thought you need some time. I'm thinking to give u a call but i'm too scared with your respond, cause i have my heart broken after i called when i'm actually dying missing you, six months ago. I felt bitter.