Am i still waiting?

I thought we are done. I thought you have leave me,when you asked me to let you go. Now you came back? You said you love me, and wanted me to be your girlfriend again. "If i turn on the light just once, will you make things brighter for me?". That's all i can ask from you, a very simple task. Will you please love me only,just me? Will you care for me? Will you become better? Will you trust me? Will you please have faith in our relationship? Will you put me as your priority? Will you? . I have too many questions to ask you. However,when i met you,i become speechless. It's not about him or her. This is about us. I got confused. You came back again,after i decided to forgot you and erase everything. You know,you got special place in my heart. You'll be there,deep down. My sweetest and bitter memory. Although you said,you felt as sad as i am before, but still i don't think that way. I'm sorry but i was more sad than you. I'm suffered more than you. I cried during the most random time. I make things become silly and world are spinning and upside down. Things look so worst and i can't watching loves. It's hurt pretty much and damn pain across my heart. Still,this words can't express how i felt that time. It's more than a year. I kept thinking about you and our memory stuck in my head. Today, i don't feel good. As if i was the mean person now. Now that you begging to come back,what should i do? I miss you,i miss you endlessly. You never know,how much i miss you. But miss wasn't a guarantee. Words and promises not a guarantee anymore. I used to listen to your words believe in your promise, but what have you done? You broke them all. Leaving me with regrets,biggest regret,that i can't turn back anymore. How do you assure me? Did you know, after we broke up, i have lost my trust in love. Perhaps,i no longer believe. It's too hard for me. I've been waiting for you so long to come and find me back again.