c.r.y

i wonder for my last date with you and also my present.. will i have those day with you? you seems running away from me..now i know who's birthday on july 14. you wrote her birthday in your calender..mine?? not even written anywhere.. you said she's beautiful..me?? did you ever said those to me?? when i post you anything,you never care me..did you ever like or comment my photos?? even just one?? NO..not at all..it's really pain..i feel like dying..i looking for the woman when i'm with you but i didn't found her..when i didn't find her, i suddenly found it..it's too close..i really faint..i cant even sleep..i dont feel anything..i'm just too sad..i've cry whole night..and this morning i woke up as early as 6am and force myself to sleep but i cant i kept thinking of you..i'm in pain..really pain..i'm so tired..i want to rest my life..i pray and wish to God..today i can't even fake a smile..i'm extremely sad..my life had ruined..my world totally blur..this feeling is so pathetic..i can't stop myself from crying..i can't even fake anything..no fake smile,no fake laugh..i can't fake anymore..i want to cry whole day...i wonder why i fell for you..i wonder why you can't love me? why do you chase after something not sure and leaving something is surely you get. am i so cheap for you? why do you play with my heart,my feeling? i'm really hurt and pain..i want to hear your voice..i want to meet you and cry in your hug..will it be? where are you? i had sacrificed a lot for you. did you ever realize?