booom

everyday i wait a text or might be a call from you..when received one, i'm surely so happy even you just said as simple as 'take a good care' or 'dont get cold'. i very appreciate. but today is very lame! i was sadly in front laptop online,suddenly phone was vibrating and as i wish, that was you texting me..holy crap,this stupid person was so happy,finally get a text message from you.. but it end up with heart breaking..you suddenly so angry and give me scold and warning..so not expected to get scolded. that time i was really no mood and so down already,cause just found out the july14 girl..and suddenly you text me and booom me with your anger just because i dont eat.. i have my breakfast ok! just no lunch.. and thanks to the weather for accompany me raining.. i dont know why you suddenly will booom me like that,really no idea,that time is really really pain.. you said hurt is passed..yea man hurt is passed. but that time i was mood down!! and you booom me lagi..omg la! really down down mood already..really unexpected..and give warning lagi..that time i really fucking my life already..i felt like sleeping straight away until tomorrow noon just wake up..felt like kena shoot so many times but undead =.=''' . that hurt and pain i felt at ''break up day'' coming back..something eating me inside..you bringing up my hurt and pain back.. you shouldn't warning me like that!!!!!!!!!! you should say,hoii bongo go eat la,whole day no eat want die ah you??. you say like this i straight will go eat..lunch and dinner straight away if can tomorrow breakfast i also eat la....that was better than, ''you no eat wont treat you as my friend anymore''. you say this thing to your friend meh??kids will do,that's why i say haiz.. don't say like that anymore ah!!! i rather kena marah like hoii hoii, uii uiii, call me babi bongo and what so ever just not bodoh..

i know i'm much different from your other friend because i love you and you know that..i hold hurt and pain inside me..that hurt of being left behind..that pain when you love someone but they just ignore you feeling..and those feeling of wondered; where is he now? what is he doing now? is he still breathing there? he already eat? he go work today? he stay home? he got online? he sleep? wake up yet? sleep yet? what time he go sleep? what time he wake up? omg!! you should know how is that feeling.

even i dont want to think about it, that thought really dont want run away from my head..so i'll just stay with those thought in my head everyday.but i still care myself..as i told you if i dont,i die long ago,maybe 2months ago, on aug10 lagi die already..but hey i still alive here just crack heart already =..=

**whenever you text me,i expect to received a good message that could make me smile,not booom message like today.i've hurt a lot already,so please don't keep hurt me anymore. maybe you can't make me happy as before, but you still can make me happy as friend or maybe someone special..but to me you always have special place in my heart :") . i hope to hear your apologize..